Last year I was...

This time last year I had know I idea what live was going to like for me!! At this time, I was starting my 2 months in and out of the hospital. I remember that one of my good friends Amanda had her baby on the 10th of May. I wanted to be there but I was suck in the hospital myself. During this stay, Paige and Christine came to visit me and brought Mary Morgan and Lil David to see me!! It was a great visit! They told me that they got lost coming to the hospital and that they lost Nathan's gameboy ds. I felt so bad for them for losing the gameboy. I even missed taking on of my finals due to being in the hospital. I was hurting so bad and hated that my doctors were don't doing anything to really help me. I was on steroids! I hate them now!! I hope to never be put on them again!! I was also needing two blood transfusions during this visit. They hurt so bad. I cried the most of the time during the first transfusion. I'm so thankful now for blood donors. They really do safe lives. If I could, I would donate myself. I don't weigh enough. Live has been really hard, but God was with me the whole time. I'll tell more later.

On a happier note, I will be going home this weekend. My sister, Brooke, is having a baby shower. I'm so excited. I'm going to give her the project that I have been working on the last few weeks. Jaylee, my niece, is so spoiled, and she's not even here yet. Oh man, what have I done?

Whew...

God's really working on me, and I'm not sure what is going on. I just know that He's been trying to humble me. God really humbled me a lot today. I've been unhappy is the best word I can use with this. I know your thinking with my marriage, house, and etc... I very happy in my marriage and it was my house. I'm happy with it too just not with how I have it decorated. I want to paint the kitchen, redo my room, knock off the deck and place a stone patio, and a few other things. I visited the Wright family tonight, and I truly saw one big happy family! I hope and pray that I can raise my future children to be as blessed Wright children are. I know that I have been very selfish over last few months. I now know that I going a lot better with my actions. I know that it doesn't matter the house I live in and funiture in it; all that matters is that I and my family are safe and happy together. I want to have a family that is very happy with what they have not by what will make them happy.
I'm also very thankful for having a husband that does so much for me. Andrew has been a really big blessing to me! I couldn't have asked for a better husband. I pray that I can be as just a blessing to him as he is to me! He's going back to school to make our lives better. I have faith that we will make it with both of us being in school at the same time. I love you, Andrew, and thank God for you everyday!!