Whew...

God's really working on me, and I'm not sure what is going on. I just know that He's been trying to humble me. God really humbled me a lot today. I've been unhappy is the best word I can use with this. I know your thinking with my marriage, house, and etc... I very happy in my marriage and it was my house. I'm happy with it too just not with how I have it decorated. I want to paint the kitchen, redo my room, knock off the deck and place a stone patio, and a few other things. I visited the Wright family tonight, and I truly saw one big happy family! I hope and pray that I can raise my future children to be as blessed Wright children are. I know that I have been very selfish over last few months. I now know that I going a lot better with my actions. I know that it doesn't matter the house I live in and funiture in it; all that matters is that I and my family are safe and happy together. I want to have a family that is very happy with what they have not by what will make them happy.
I'm also very thankful for having a husband that does so much for me. Andrew has been a really big blessing to me! I couldn't have asked for a better husband. I pray that I can be as just a blessing to him as he is to me! He's going back to school to make our lives better. I have faith that we will make it with both of us being in school at the same time. I love you, Andrew, and thank God for you everyday!!