Changing of Jobs, States, and Life in General

We have embarked on life thinking that everything would come easy to us.  That we wouldn't have to wait long for what we wanted.  Oh how wrong was I!  Since the end of 2015, I've began to think back over the year and what Andrew and I have experienced.   We've lost loved ones, made new friends, reconnected with old friends, decided to move 4 hours away from home, and lost another baby.  2015 was so different than what I imaged it to be like for us.

Our last baby we decided to have some tests ran to hopefully give us an answer/reason as to why the miscarriages keep happening.  We found out that the baby would have been born with Turner's syndrome and would have been a girl.  I still hurt and cry about all my little ones.  However, I know they have no worry or stress. Due to being so hurt and trying to find peace and healing for our last child, I had a friend point out to me that I haven't given God everything.  I have been crying in church a lot lately.  We had an incredible first Wednesday service where I finally gave all of my hurt and pain from the last miscarriage to God.  Andrew and I talked when we both got home and decided that it would be best to name this sweet child and give her a meaning here on Earth.  We decided to name her Anna, which means favor with God.  She truly has favor for already being in Heaven with her brother and sister (that's what I feel the first two were).  We love our Sweet Anna and can't wait to meet her.  

We have known for a while that we have wanted to move due to Andrew's ideal  job in the Memphis area was beginning to grow a little thin.  I never imaged that God would bring us to Mobile (Daphne actually) for Andrew to work for a church.  I'm so excited to see what God has in store for us and our lives as we join the City Hope family.  I've met so many amazing people.  I'm very excited about living closer to the beach, which we went to the beach yesterday and it was such a beautiful day.  We spent most of the day trying to figure which beach we wanted to go to and ended up at Gulf Shores.  The water was freezing but being able to sit in the gorgeous sunshine with the hubs was the best part. 

I've been very sad about leaving a great job in Hernando.  I've grown to love the boys that I keep as if they are my own.  Having one since he was three months old makes it even tougher.  John Abram will always hold a special place in my heart since he helped so much during all of the miscarriages but especially the first.  Tobias, my sweet loving, Tobias.  You are such an inspiration that you make living with a life threatening illness look easy.  Oliver, you gave me the scare of my lifetime.  I had never had to call 911 on any of my kids.  I'm so glad you're healthy now and the doctors found out what caused you to pass out.  Silas, my sweet Silas.  You are the most laid back person I have ever met.  I hope I can be as cool and calm about things as you are.  Their mothers are angels as well.   Working with me on all my doctors appointments and surgeries.  I hope that whenever my time comes to be a mom that I'm half the mom that each of you are.