To get everyone caught up...

 I experienced the death of a very close loved one, my grandfather.  Papaw Hill was a wonderful grandfather and was there for us anytime we needed him.  His death was some what of a shock but wasn't unexpected.  His doctors have been telling us for over a year that they were not sure how much longer he would make it.  However, he made it to his 80th birthday and experienced another year of life with us here on earth.  He was very open about his salvation and would tell you he wanted you to be in Heaven with him.  I loved him dearly and can't wait to see him again.
Some of my favorite memories of him were taking my sisters and I to Johnie's Drive In for dough burgers and milkshakes.  This was our Friday night date night until I started high school.  He even took us on trips to see my aunt in Birmingham and we experienced him getting a couple of speeding tickets as well.   When we were younger, he loved to get out his train set for us to play with.   He was the type of man who always had to have his shirt pressed and his hair had to be just right.  (Now I know were Carlie gets it from.)   I even asked Andrew his favorite memory, which is us all sitting around his table at either Thanksgiving or Christmas playing Uno.  Papaw couldn't say Uno right, which it came out something like Youknow.
This whole week had me in an emotional state and ready to get home to my mom.  This has also got me thinking about Andrew and myself and where we are in the whole baby situation.  We haven't been back since December and are still waiting for his new insurance to take affect.  I have cried a lot because I know I didn't give him an earthy great grandchild to love, but to know that my two babies are getting to know him like I have makes it a lot easier.  I still want to be a mother and Andrew still wants to be a dad.  We are looking at different options for us and are beginning to consider adoption.  I know this is a long journey to endure but so has been the journey for us to have one of our own.  I love loving on my babies that I keep and honestly do love each of them like my own.  Their sweet smiles, kisses, and hugs have helped me so much over the last year.  We are looking into some adoption agencies but that's about as far as we have gone.  Andrew's working a lot, and we are enjoying the time just us.